As I laid in bed waiting for my son to fall asleep this evening, I noticed the brilliance of color the low light from the setting sun strewn across my bedroom.  I began to see words dancing all around the room.  Faith, Believe, Joy, Family, my childrens names.  I think now I will be shopping for wall tattoos.  What an astonishing year this 2012 has been thus far for me and my babies.  

     I crept down the long stair case, with the original banister from 100 years ago, and each step has its own unique groan.  Made me smile as I remembered the house I grew up in, there was never any way to sneak then either! ~smiles~ As I round the corner at the bottom of the stairs and head out into my favorite room, my kitchen, I am caught again with awe at the colors the light threw my new curtains lays out across the walls.  Do you know that feeling, the one deep inside your tummy.....warm and inviting that lets you know you are safe and happy?  I dont believe in all of my life, that I can remember anyway, that I have ever felt so connected to a house as I am to this one.

     I look at the days laid out behind me in 2011.....and am so filled with awareness for all that has happened to/for us in the last few months.  I didnt even realize I was so worried about things until I was no longer in that space we just left.  The last walk through it was short and sweet, and as much as I loved the calm there, I was light on my feet as I said goodbye and walked away from it for good. 

     Words like gratitude and respect in the written form seem so small in comparison to how I feel right now.  My energy just knew I had to put it down.  I felt a need to put to "paper" my thoughts and feelings.  I have known gratitude and respect for a great many things in my life, from the smallest of things to the biggest.  In these moments this evening as I walked through my new home, I was floating on a cloud of acknowledgment larger than I have ever felt before.  (Well, except for the birth of my babies, but on such a different level)


     I can feel the energy stir as I listen to the sounds of my children playing up and down and all around this large space and I find myself smiling more and more each day.  That is the way it is I have found, when I am open to all things, without thought to control any situation.  I have opened up to the Universe and in its infinite wisdom, I am shown yet again, that the plan for me is ever so much more than what I can imagine.  There is much to be said about sitting down in life and letting go of the wheel, as opposed to white knuckling the direction WE WANT to go in.  The irony is so simple I almost missed it.  

     This exercise in acceptance for me has been so enlightening.  I know I must sound all gushy and stuff.....but I wanted to sit down and pen it out so to speak before the thought was lost among all the others.

     We are all able to have this magic in our lives.  Worry Doubt and Fear play WAY to big a part in most of our lives.  2011 was proof positive to me that the worry is not the winning side of life.  I have stepped over that line and am now standing firmly in FAITH with Gratitude in my heart and pouring out of every pore!

     Love and blessings to you all!!!!

The Photo is a of Lake Pepin at Sunset! This is where we now live. Isnt it beautiful!

How many times do we get trapped or lost in the movement of a thot?  i.e.worrying about taxes, bills, death, or even getting caught at something.....or catching someone else at something.....and in our thoughts we can create things that havent even happened yet just to make sure we get thru something if it happens?  Ive done that for sure!

 Not anymore, but I can surely tell you, I could create how an entire conversation would go in my head before I ever even said the first word. My point is this....again with the doubt fear and worry....the message is very clear. That we imagine ourselves into the proverbial box we would like to get out of just by staying stuck on a single thought process.  That worry or concern that can eat at us because we arent dealing with what is necessary to get out of the situation, rather, we are having the whole worrisome scenario worked over and over in our thots. 

This is how we get trapped in a rut that seemingly has no end.  As you are reading this do you understand how this might play into something in your daily life? If the things that are spoken about in this blog seem to hit home with you, that is a the point of you being here at my site. That you can relate to what is being said, and maybe,just maybe get some help in the process for how to work thru your life issues, then that makes it all worth the effort to be here everyday. 

We are all responsible for out lives....even the abused and neglected. That sounds tough hearted doesnt it?  It is not meant like that. I believe that we all have a chosen path to live. Good bad or indifferent. Karma is chosen to be exacted in each life scenario we choose. I know this concept is tough for some to grasp, but please at least think about it. Rather than working the fear in your thoughts about the situations in your life, try to work it into the forefront of your life. Do not sit idly by allowing your life to play out in front of you without your interaction. 

You can change the course of any situation with trust faith and belief in the Creator. Life is to be enjoyed, when we work thru the tough stuff rather than allowing it to control us, then we are back on track. There are always obstacles and issues to deal with....its dealing with them and putting them behind you that enriches your life....not sitting on top of them hoping they dont explode in your face. This only serves to slow us down and can actually stand us still.

Our spiritual maturity is gauged by our ability to be gracious and in balance when the good things happen,  but more when those tough things do.  Seeking our inner truths at every opportunity is the point! 

Have a magical day......and believe that your life had purpose above and beyond your wildest dreams~