As 2011 comes to its close, many thoughts are in my mind. Running through this last year. Thinking of the times Ive had, the processing Ive been through. I wanted to put a few ideas on paper so to speak~
There are lessons in every day. This I know from personal experience. Of late, I have been fighting with doubt. I know in my hear that everything is on track and going according to plan. Yet there is this nagging way back place that says....."yea, but Peg, you always screw things up"....I try to ignore it, and then, in moments of alone time, poof! There it is again.
So Im thinking that lessons come to me for a reason. Im not embasrrassed to share them with all of you. I feel there is a purpose to what it is I believe and do. Then there must be a reason that this is happening. Sometimes I wonder if old habits come back to the forefront when I speak to a client who reminds me of my past. But this is not the case of late, calls have been slim. And even as I wrtie this I can feel the energy from guides telling me there is nothing to pin this on but me.
The woman that I have become, the person you all know now is quite different than the woman I once was. I have remnants of temperament and attittude, but all in all, finding my spiritual path has most certainly changed my life for the better. As I sit here writing this I know its for a reason, and for the life of me I am working it out here with all of you.
I am a perfectionist in most aspects of my life. Im a list keeper, and a budget planner. Im constantly writing things down. The plan is all worked out, believe me, I have hit it from every angle. And I know to some it might seem a bit "flying by the seat of my britches"....yet, I have not a single worry that the home that is to be mine and my childrens will show itself upon my arrival.
Where does this nagging feeling come from? I figure you all must have levels and dregrees of this bothersome issue also. I feel like something from the past is creeping up behind me very quietly and trying to knock me in the back of my knee to buckle my leg and stop me from moving forward.
We all choose our karma, this I believe. Some of us choose tougher then others.....and the old soul energy I feel says to me, this is the last go round if I choose, and get it all right. Do the right thing at every turn, stand in the right choices at the cross roads of my life. Free will is a wondeful tool but only if used properly. I have mis used its power in the past....I work ever so diligently to not make those mistakes again.
Not all things that make us over think are bad. This I know. There is a balance in all things in the ebb and flow of the universal tide. I do feel however, that this that is plaguing me is not a positive energy. I feel it is the cords of my past crawling after me hoping I stand still just long enough to glom onto me again.
So why do I write this to you all today? Because I am very sure that this is some of what goes on inside of us all. The difference in the woman then and the woman NOW is very simple....I get it, I feel it, I see thru it, and I know what it is. These types of things would knock me silly in the past....all the indecision, doubt, fear and worry. No longer do they hold center stage. And even tho I sit here and tell you, I am concerned for the choices Ive made, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I will be shown yet another lesson in this lifetime very soon.....want to know what it is?
Do not resist the change.....the force that is inside of me that pushes me to make choices, and feel my way in the dark....I am not afraid. Plain and Simple....I fear not a thing and I realize that the little tiny thing that is trying to impede my change forward is ME. Not the choices, not the place I chose, not the home Ive yet to find, not the men I let go of, and most certainly, not myself.
The end of this year is upon us. As we head into 2012 we seek balance and inner peace. I appreciate being able to get things out here in this venue, and thank you for coming here to read my jumble of thought and process.
I feel better already, purging my energy of these thots. So take heed in your own lives....look the face in the mirror in the eye and allow nothing to slip past you. Spiritually I am a strong, intelligent, capable woman.....my human self suffers with flaws.....but the all of it is so damn sill simple....I THINK IT......IT IS!!! Period~!
I more often than not get the idea for the daily blog the night before. This time was no different. Simplicity. Nothing big or grand....only profound thots of keeping things in life simple. Complicating things only makes for more issue. So my guide energy drew me to this short but sweet thot for today.
When your head hurts from the swirling confusion around any situation....then its been over complicated. When going to work makes you tired before you leave for the office, then things have become too problematic. When you think of spending time with a friend and you feel troublesome instead of pleased....the labyrinth of miscommunication is the key. These examples are so few compared to the truth of the complications we endure when we allow perplexing complications to arise in our lives.
Think about what your part is in the intricate complications in your life. Do you have the key to unlock the energy and bring it back to simplicity? Do you hold in your heart the heavy feelings that are keeping the situations stuck? Can it be that if you let go of your complicated stronghold, the simplicity of the situation would return?
I know that in my world, it is most certainly true that I have the control to lighten the energy around any situation. In my world, I hold the key to all of my own locked doors. Doors that surround feelings, emotions, hurt and worry. All things we have control over being simplified sounds good to me. And if you have NO control over something, then whats the worry for in the first place? A waste of your time. We are what we think.....and we draw to us that which we think. Simplify your life my dears.....then all things are possible. That which is positive and good will become contagious and spread from within outwardly toward those around you.
Blessings in Love and Light~
I went yesterday to meet with a woman from my childhood. My doesnt that seem like a lifetime ago. We hit it off famously....but briefly spoke of the anger and unhappiness we all shared as kids....made is mean to each
other. Funny how almost 30 years can offer up a change that makes us now happy to sit in each others company. But that also lead to the realization that some things, and some people seem to never change.
Ok....so that brings to me to todays blog.....how to exact the changes
you want to happen in your life. Standing still is never an option....but indeed many folks do it that way. Making the choice to
stand in one place waiting or their life to happen around them. That is not what believe we choose this life for. We are about the experience of this existence....so that we may evolve into the next plain of being.
It does NO GOOD to sit and fussle and worrying about anything. PERIOD. There is no addendum to that statement....in other words giving certain moments when it would be ok. When you want something to happen in your life....when does it happen for you? Not when you are sitting around wallowing in worry about it NOT happening thats for sure.
Live your life to its fullest.....what does that mean? Most assuredly it
does not mean to stand in doubt about the possibilities for your life.
What about those people born into poverty? Into the ghettos across this world....starving and dying, or killing one another because they have nothing? I feel we ALL choose this life we are to live. That our "lot" as some call it is predestined and we have choices to make to make our life better. That also leads me to the place where we ARE ALL EQUAL.....we are all one. So, should there be starving people anywhere in the world? Hmmmm, not so sure about that.
Funny....as I am writing this this morning, I keep wanting to inject
other things, and my guide is pushing me to delete and begin a paragraph again....I am not sure why this happens, except that my personal opinion may be a bit too harsh and that from Spirit it comes across more palpable to others. I just wanted to tell you this as to be honest from my heart.
Ok....back on track....change...how to handle it, how to accept it how to direct your life in its direction. Its a simple thing actually.
Picture yourself in a boat....your boat....as if your life and its
course is set on water.....and you would think you need to steer the
boat....so you grip the wheel...sometimes loosely, sometimes white
knuckled.....all the while, not paying attention to the seat in the boat
that is behind you.....what would a seat be doing there if you needed
to man this boats direction.....cause the simple lesson is trust, faith,
belief.....in that fact that you can sit down, let go of the wheel.
\Allow your boat to drift onto its course....you are destined my dear to be on a path.....when you have blinders on and see nothing but fear doubt and worry, the change that needs to happen keeps on floating by....and you miss opportunity after opportunity as you command control of your life boat.
The message is simple....and spirit is most certainly directing me this
morning to let go of my personal opinion and allow in the simple truth that you all need to read....let go....let go of the control you feel is needed in your life and sit down. Take a break. What do you want in your life? What do you want to happen? What do you need to do to allow this change into your life? I can bet its so simple it will befuddle you..... a little trust, faith and belief in those things you cannot see hear or see.
Remember that we are all connected....like the root system of the great aspens in colorado....we are all one....even if that sounds silly, its the truth. This is the time to allow into your life the truth about our existence. No FEAR no DOUBT no WORRY.
Have a marvelous weekend ahead! Snow here in Minnesota.....yay!!!
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